Solitary

There's all these people here
that hear my song
but don't sing along

What I need is just a day
to sit or lay with someone
who will quiet our voices for a little while
and sing
join in to hear our voices rise
ringing up to the stars
lost in a Love that isn't ours

Spirits join as one and dance
Praise him the way we were made to
Breathe in each other's brokenness
Breathe out love that reaches over and embraces
breaths that are more whole than just air

I know this time will come again soon

I'm content with where I am
because you never stop singing
the most beautiful song

Exhale

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Tears finally came like rain
breaking through dense clouds
of fear
releases
water
and life
but now I just sit
messy and drenched
clothes torn and tossed to the side of me cuz they were suffocating my skin
just trying to take a breath
you come
lift my chin
I meet your eyes
wet as mine
alive
I am alive
Heaven lives inside me
Itʻs my choice to live like it
or live like I actually belong
to everything I'm feeling

Drone

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I think I'm gonna keep my head down today
keep my mind blank
lips sealed
feet moving
for how long, I don't know
I want my mind as glazed over
as my eyes were when pain pushed my
heart down into a place it hasn't been familiar with for a while now
my feet will pat a hypnotic beat
metronome
monotone
air to breathe is all I need
subconsciously keeping me alive
melancholy
warm day
cool breeze

who needs to speak?

Picking Up Breadcrumbs

So, what if I wrote a post about not being able to write lately?

Screw the irony.  I'm gonna do it.

All I keep getting are pieces of pieces
a couple lines here
a verse here
a chorus there
but nothing
connects

nothing

...and that's all I got

but I'm beginning to let myself see
that right now, that's probably all I need