Silence

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I open this book

and I look

at a life once so alive

where I didn't have to hide from You

didn't have to be so down

cuz I KNEW what

who, when, where and why

I was living

when I could look to the sky

and say, "Hi, God"

without a snide little remark

in the back of my head

out of the darkness

making me think twice

about this awkward, crazy life

and then I stop

and suddenly I don't know what to say

I don't know what to pray

and I lay down again to let time

flow me by.  I

close my eyes

blind

and I'm gone

I lose myself in the days where

dawn dawns and dusk dusks

without me knowing it

because this gentle dust is

comfortable

it rocks me tenderly

never shocks me

thus making me

unbumpable

cuz I don't do anything that

tips my boat

so I stay afloat

not drowning in uncertainty

where my steps are clear to me

no curtain dropped in front of my view

that tells me to trust You

though I know not what hides behind door #2

and again I stop

Breathe

Think again why I'm going crazy

and I'm stuck in this 'maybe'

I think it's because...

I think it might be...

...and I open my eyes to no surprise

of my Best Friend holding me with tears in His eyes

cuz He's been listening and watching all along

singin a song over me

prayin', intercedin' that I'd be free

if I'd just let Him Be

and Exist

If I'd just fist-in-my-mouth shut up

and listen

listen

cuz this silence

invites

this silence

calms

and in this silence

there's a hope

and a faith

outside of all the debates

above the voices

voicing our choices

this silence

speaks