Pride

I WANNA BE THE BEST
Because every part of my life is a test
that I wanna be the best in
beat the rest in
never restin'
puffin' up my chest and
rising above every single one of you
and you
and YOU
cuz you
are supposed to be number two
and me
number one
I wanna be the one who takes the win
wind in my face after the sound of the gun
who knows I've won
always win the ones
that matter
that I treasure
I don't care what you can do
I wanna do it better
Set the bar as high as you like
I
will run my ass into the ground to try to learn how to fly
leave you behind
like "Bye Bye, you.  You lose.
You LOSE, you LOSE, I WIN!"
In everything


Where
Where did this all begin?
Why do I sit and watch the ones I love
showing God their love
doing the things they love
and the first thing surfacing in my mind is
I. Can. Do. Better.
How can I. Do. Better.
Instead of just sitting and listening
I'm constantly thinking of ways
I could better portray the things they're saying
they're singing
they're playing
they're bringing
See cuz I'm still being
accustomed to this Kingdom
erecting kids as it's model for greatness
low made high and high made low
honor bestowed on those whose toes go uncovered
dirty children, widowed mothers
all the least of these and others

I need to strive to be less
cuz others are more
for this upside-down Kingdom
is here to restore what's left
and nobody cares about who's best

so as I starve the pride inside me
please feed the things You want to come alive
cuz I know when I try to top people off
it just makes them want to hide
I don't want them to hide from me
I wanna see that light in their eyes
flickering to life when they partake in a little sharsies time
You looking and me hearing you say to them, "You are mine."

The world can have it's best's and beat the rest's
it can take all my F's on the tests I get
I'd rather let my pride go hungry
and see everyone one I love bungee-jump off their Comfort Cliffs
letting go of their 'but's 'if's and 'maybe's
hearing them say He's
worth it in the end

You are worth it in the end
so I'll stop trying to pretend
I can be the best at something
Your best is what I'll be on a quest for
as You will be providing me with rest
make Your best mine
Jesus, You
You shine
as I
deny myself
cry for help
and die
so You can raise me up in Your life

Shine Jesus shine
Pride die come shine
Shine Jesus, shine